I am not sure I have ever felt as restless as I do lately. These days I feel like my life is an exercise in patience. Waiting for Spring, waiting for the perfect audition, waiting to meet a guy.
I have always believed that in order to take big steps forward in life, you have to be happy where you are. And so I have worked on being happy, here and now. I know I have enough, which is why it is hard for me to admit that I want more.
I want to feel stimulated by my life. I can feel myself getting too comfortable and too lazy.
I want more.
So my big idea is to move to Europe- which is kind of ridiculous. I have only been to Europe once, for an audition. I don't speak any languages other than English. I am sort of the typical American.
I don't know how well I would do in a foreign country, but I want to be surrounded by another culture and another language. I want to immerse myself in challenge. I want to explore my own limits. I want to be really tired at the end of the day.
I don't think I should wait anymore.